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What’s Your Fear Factor?

“When you take a leap into the well of fear, you may notice that things do not feel very good there. When you retreat into that darkness, things may seem overwhelming and impossible. You may become ‘paralyzed’ and find that you are moving AWAY from your dreams instead of INTO them.

What price do you pay when fear takes hold? Notice what happens on the physical level – perhaps constriction of muscle, a tightness in your chest, shallow breathing, or cold sweat. When you are lost in fear, what emotions creep in? Where do your thoughts go? What happens when you are happy and full of excitement?

When you can identify your fears and embrace them with love and compassion, then you will find that the time you spend visiting them DECREASES and the time you spend in excitement, joyful curiosity, wonder, and PURE LOVE INCREASES.

Which would you prefer?” – At One

Today’s Powerful and Positive Affirmation is:
“I live in excitement! Life is so good to me all ways!”

Today I am grateful for the teachings of love vs. fear, prosperous new business ventures, new Spiritual Coaching clients, Murray and Jerome at Narativ Inc. for breakthroughs in storytelling and writing, Lisa Nichols, Ardyss International, Robin, Fred, workshops that are overflowing with participants, gray skies, winter rain, deep sleep and YOU.

Thanks and peace to all!



You Irritate the S— Out of Me!

Life is fascinating.

I went to the Cosi café on 13th St. and Broadway on Monday afternoon to have some tea and write about allowing and accepting. As I waited for my computer to boot up I heard a woman sitting near me say to her male companion, “Do you have to say that? You irritate the shit out of me.” Perfect fodder for my blog, I thought.

When I logged on to Cosi’s free internet service, I saw the slogan ‘Cosi: Life Should Be Delicious.’ Hmm… How can life be delicious when we are irritated by the behavior of another?

“When you say that someone is irritating you, you are certainly not allowing them or your self to enjoy what is. A more honest and responsible way to express that would be, ‘I see that I am not happy right now because my thoughts about what you said are irritating me.’

When you identify the source of your irritation, anger, sadness, jealousy, resentment, or fear you can instantly loosen the grip that YOUR THOUGHTS have on you. Yes, it is ultimately your thoughts about any situation that lead to negative feelings and sometimes actions (and words) that cause you to look away from the infinite beauty and excitement of any moment.” – At One

My friend Eduardo is a great teacher. Last year he told me that his goal in life was to be happy. I see that happiness keeps finding him. He holds the intention of happiness and it shows up. Perfect and easy (if you let it be).

We are what we think. What we focus on grows. That’s the Law of Attraction and Manifestation. How is it working for you?

Today’s Powerful and Positive Affirmation is:
“I allow All That Is to be All That Is.”

My thanks go out today to Sunday’s powerful At One Alliance; a pleasurable, love-filled Valentine’s Weekend; coziness at Cosi; the NY Shamanic Circle; the world wide web; sunny days; an abundance of new and prosperous business, my book agent, editor and publisher; chocolate; a clear mind and open heart.

Thanks and peace to all!


This Is To Mother You

I was standing in the kitchen chopping vegetables and listening to an assortment of music from my iTunes catalog last night when the following lyrics from the song This Is To Mother You (written and originally performed by Sinead O’Connor on her Gospel Oak EP) beckoned me to be still and listen closely:

“All mistakes made in distress
All your unhappiness
I will take away with my kiss
Yes I will give you tenderness

For child I am so glad I found you
Although my arms have always been around you
Sweet bird although you did not see me
I saw you.”

Although I’ve heard the song dozens of times I was absolutely mesmerized. Following an impulse and a recognizable call to sit in meditation, I hit the replay button on the iTunes program and walked into my dark living room in time to see the moon – half full, golden and looming large in the sky – nestled between two buildings. I sat on the floor and closed my eyes. Images of what I call the Divine Mother began to surface. The Virgin of Guadeloupe, Kuan-Yin, Kali, and an infinite number of energies that called themselves ‘the grandmothers’ sang to me and caressed me.

“All the pain that you have known
All the violence in your soul
All the wrong things you have done
I will take from you when I come”

Memories of tender and nurturing moments with lovers, friends, and family brought tears of joy to my eyes.

“And I’m here to mother you
To comfort you and get you through
Through when your nights are lonely
Through when your dreams are only blue
This is to mother you”

Sometimes I find it best not to question those experiences, so I just let it unfold. When I went to bed I could still hear the voice of ‘the grandmothers’ and see their light shining brightly over my arms, legs and head.

“Thank you,” I whispered.

Who is mothering you?

Today’s Positive and Powerful Affirmation is:
“I mother myself all ways.”

Today I am grateful for divine guidance, mothers all other the world and beyond, trust, Sinead O’Connor, music that moves me, a soft touch, dreamless sleep, early morning inspirational talks, Pandora, Nurture’s Path, deep breaths, and home-cooked meals.

Thanks and peace to all.


Where Does Pleasure Lie?

Pleasure is very seductive. I have found myself caught completely off guard by it, sometimes quite happily, other times not so much. I have been lost in it, loving it, not wanting it to end but knowing it would.

It happened again recently, and afterward I tried to deny the joy that stirred inside of me. It was very painful.

I was grateful to come across the following quote by Byron Katie in her book A Thousand Names for Joy:

“Usually pleasure is a subtle form of discomfort, because even as you’re enjoying sex or food, for example, you cling to your enjoyment; you want it to last, you want more of it, or you’re afraid of losing it even as it’s happening. The difference between pleasure and joy? Ohhh…the difference is from here to the moon – from here to another galaxy! Pleasure is an attempt to fill yourself. Joy is what you are.

In meditation I discovered a similar theme:

“”Have you ever noticed that when you say no to something that will truly bring you pleasure you do not always feel so good?

Pleasure is the pathway to you. Can you allow that to manifest?

In every moment there lies an opportunity to feel the pleasure of what is. Take away the doubt and fear. Let your most intuitive self guide you to where the pleasure all ways lies waiting – inside of you.”

And so it is.

Today I am grateful for an abundance of pleasure, pre-dawn stillness, morning meditation, action calls, understanding the Law of Attraction, dreaming big dreams, the gym, Yogi Tea, the delete key on my laptop, the ability to press send, prosperous business opportunities, my book agent, editor and publisher.

Thanks and peace to all!


Who Are You, Really?

“Now is the perfect time to be you. As you continue to know your self, you rediscover the wonderful, beautiful, outstanding, and magnificent connection that you all ways have to everything. Isn’t it good to know that everything is a part of you?” – At One + JM

I stood on the platform of the subway station at Union Square the other day watching people rush onto the express train.

“I’m glad that’s not me today,” I said to myself.

“But it is you,” I heard myself say in response. “You are each of those people. You are the train. You are the sound of the train. You are the tracks. You are the water on the tracks. You are the stairs, the cracks in the wall, the floor, the smells. All of it is you and you are all of it. There is no separation.”

That was not the first time I’d heard something like that. My initial encounter with the concept of “every thing is one thing” came in the early 1990’s in meditative shamanic visions and through the Amazonian plant medicine Ayahuasca. In those visions I experienced myself merging seamlessly with the cosmos.

For the past few months I’ve been reading and thinking about the All Is One concept in earnest in an attempt to learn more about the inner peace that has welled up in me this year.

In her book A Thousand Names For Joy, Byron Katie writes, “As I noticed the falling-away of the self and saw that it’s construct was absolutely invalid, what remained was humbled through the recognition. Everything dissolved – all that I had imagined myself to be. I realized that I was none of it, that everything I stood for was insubstantial and ridiculous. And what remained from that fell away, too, until finally there was nothing left to be humble about, no one left to be humble. If I was anything, I was gratitude.”

Whatever beliefs you have created in order to identify yourself dissolve in the face of the knowledge that you are no less or greater than that which lies all around.

Humbling indeed. Peace inducing for sure. And yes, bring on the gratitude!


Today I am grateful for homemade soup, time in the garden, writing, storytelling, soft music, sleeping past 9AM, candles, Always Economically Viable, the Sound Circle Project, prosperous new business opportunities, the YMCA, my book agent and editor, Hay House Publishing and Radio.

Thanks and peace to all!


Positive Affirmations Help Me To…

“Explain to people that everything they say is an affirmation. Everything they think is an affirmation. Everything! What you want to do is to get control of what you are saying and thinking, so these things bring you good experiences in life rather than rotten experiences.”
Louise Hay, author of the best-selling You Can Heal Your Life, and founder of Hay House Publishing

Positive affirmations help me to stay focused on what I want.

Positive affirmations help me to see how often I am not present to the now.

Positive affirmations help me to believe that everything is possible.

Positive affirmations help me to push beyond my limiting thoughts, patterns and habits.

Positive affirmations help me to be open to receiving all that I ask for.

How do positive affirmations help you?

Would you like to share your affirmations? If so, leave them in the comment section below and I will happily post them.

Today I am grateful for my health, my breath, my bones, my blood, my boundless energy, my birthday, warm November days in NYC, the food in my fridge, quiet nights at home, messages in meditation, my work, my clients, my teachers, and new ideas.


Thanks and peace!


Who’s in Charge of Your Health Care?

obama health care

On Wed., Sept. 9th President Obama went before the nation to explain a bit more about his administration’s proposed plan to reform the U.S. health care system.

The idea that all American’s should have an option for medical coverage in times of illness or accident sounds like a good plan to me. Getting to that point may take more time and further heated debate. Are we willing to listen, to participate, to envision?

A proposal that provides funds to educate people on how to take better care of themselves through exercise, meditation, breath work, positive thinking and some other non-traditional health practices would certainly have my support. Could those practices decrease the public’s reliance on prescription drugs and other ‘traditional’ medical treatments? I say let’s find out.

An article published on the web site U.S. Medicine titled “When Traditional Medicine Fails, Patients Frequently Turn to Other Sources of Hope and Healing” stated that,

“In 2007, 83 million adults used some form of complementary or alternative medicine, according to the National Health Interview Survey. This is equal to about 38% of the entire population. Those 83 million people made 354 million visits to complementary and alternative medicine (CAM) providers and spent $33.9 billion doing so, making up more than 10% of the total out-of-pocket health care costs for Americans in 2007.

CAM includes yoga, chiropractic and osteopathic manipulation, massage, meditation, dietary supplements that are not vitamins or minerals, and similar therapies.”

Here in New York City there are an abundance of preventive and alternative care options. There seems to be a fitness center every few blocks. New yoga studios keep popping up. Massage therapists abound. Crystal healing, acupuncture, shamanism, and sound healing workshops can all be found. You name it, we’ve probably got it.

Dr. Andrew Weil, Founder and Director of the Arizona Center for Integrative Medicine, wrote in a Huffington Post article on Thu., Sept. 10th, “…we cannot afford to wait on Washington. We must take responsibility ourselves to eat right, exercise, practice stress reduction and take the other necessary steps to maximize our own health and happiness.”

Looking for yet another perspective on ‘health care’, I sat down to listen for some otherworldly advice on the issue.

“The greatest care giver in the world could be staring back at you each time you look in the mirror.

How do you live each moment of your day? Are you aware of the power of Mind? Are you aware of the power of Positive Intention? Are you aware of your own ability to create a life that is full of the health and wealth that you say you desire?

Take a moment (or two, or three, or more) to get to know your self. Find out what truly makes you feel good and pursue it with a fully engaged heart AND mind. Focus daily on a life – YOUR life – that is easy and joyful.

When every cell of your being knows that perfect health is a state of mind, and YOU are all ways the deciding factor in any ‘health care’ issue, then you loose the desire to argue about which health care plan to choose. With a clear heart and mind, you will automatically attract the care that is most appropriate for you.” At One


Today I am grateful for a restful sleep, morning smiles, deep breaths, the US Open Tennis Tournament, warm jackets, big paychecks, my book agent, editor and publisher, Hay House Publishing and Radio, an abundance of new clients, and endless possibilities.

Thanks and peace!